ade mood nak menulis. tapi takde idea. bagaimana kah? esok sajelah ok?

*ye, saye tahu entry ini pointless. just to let u guys know im still alive*

akuharusmenjadimatangdengansegera. mesti!! go go go sarahh..u can do ittt

C.R.Y

sometimes, crying is good


especially when you feel overwhelmed like there's a giant mountain on your shoulder

especially when you feel frustrated that something that you have worked so hard on didnt produce the result that you want

especially when you wondered if there is something wrong with how you do things that Allah refused to help you

especially when you are confused about the path that you have already chosen, whether you're on the right track

especially when you are going through a very big change, and only Allah knows how hard it is for you, struggling with yourself so that you wont revert to the old you



how i wish nobody would ever has to shed a tear of sadness, frustration, depression

but sometimes, crying helps

it wont solve the problem

but it let the heart speaks the words that the mouth cannot say

and it also made you realize your place in this world, that you are not invincible after all

and it made your heart return to Allah and seek for His help more

because, after all, its only by remembering Allah that the heart find peace and solace

doraeee maengg

if doraemon's time machine really exists, i'll definitely go back to yesterday and hit yesterday's sarah on the head and drag her from the bed to the laptop for leaving today's sarah struggle with the mounting workloads, with high probability of many sleepless nights to come, all thanks for yesterday's sarah undying love of procrastinating and sleeping.

anyhow. yes, i am complaining yet again, as usual. but tonight I'll try my best to stick to my target, InsyaAllah. even if it means less stalking (dont worry, i wont stalk U. i only stalk attractive people. HAHA. joking!!!)

Orang Islam kena kuat dan tidak membuang masa! Marilah berjuangggg! huk!



Ya Allah, permudahkanlah urusanku dan rakan2 ku. Sesungguhnya Kaulah sebaik baik Penolong.. ameen

“Shall we make a new rule of life from tonight: always try to be a little kinder than is necessary.”- James Matthew Berry

i need to grow up

i need to stop being upset and sad everytime it happens

i need to learn to let go

i need to

need to


O Allah, pls pls pls help me. SOS





sometimes I wonder what it is like to live in outerspace, far from this place. I heard there's no sound in space?

hari smlm dlm sejarah

Dear blog,

 i forgot to blog about this yesterday, but it is an event (well, 2 actually) so significant I decided not to just ignore it (although the excitement level is already low today. haha).

1) I succeeded in cooking one of my favorite dishes, unaided!! (i purposely kicked my housemates out of the kitchen). but i wont tell u what the dish was (it was so easy its embarassing I took pride in it). for those who still dont know, I am practically domestically disabled. But that is to improve this year. haha. I'll be cooking like a pro in no time, InsyaAllah (hoho sungguh yakin diri disitu), thanks to the unwritten rule by my housemates, that we take turns to cook every other day. Before this, all I did was helping with small things, like cooking the vegetables, chopping the onions, etc but I realized that I wont be making any big progress in cooking serious dishes if I continue just doing that. Although it was quite nerve-wrecking at first (and the kitchen I am working in closely resembles a ship wreck), I found satisfaction every time I succeeded (although the dishes I cooked so far were soooo easy most of you can cook with both eyes close), and more confident too. But im really hoping I'll be gaining more courage to cook the more complicated stuffs that can make my mama proud=))


2) I happened to sign up for a 3 months gym membership yesterday! Which means no more slacking around and telling myself  "tomorrow.. tomorrow I'll start jogging" until the end of time. Haha. Da byr mahal kut. kalau malas jugak tak taula.. Resolution for this year: to go back to Malaysia less heavy than the previous years. Saya boleh! Saye mampu mengubahnye!! (hoho..we'll see.. if somehow it doesnt work out, please, please, please forget I've posted this. hahaha)


you know what, it is so great to have great friends that are so supportive no matter how sucks you are. heheh. say what? Alhamdulillah~

=))

annoyed

sometimes it is really really annoying when u cant tell someone how annoyed you are with him/her because u have to consider his/her feeling.

sometimes i wish i can just stop being soo rational and proper and corteous, and tell people what i really want to say, straight out, nil hypocrisy



sometimes i wish i can figure out why the heck am i getting angry over nothing

musthavelostmymind