“Shall we make a new rule of life from tonight: always try to be a little kinder than is necessary.”- James Matthew Berry

i need to grow up

i need to stop being upset and sad everytime it happens

i need to learn to let go

i need to

need to


O Allah, pls pls pls help me. SOS





sometimes I wonder what it is like to live in outerspace, far from this place. I heard there's no sound in space?

hari smlm dlm sejarah

Dear blog,

 i forgot to blog about this yesterday, but it is an event (well, 2 actually) so significant I decided not to just ignore it (although the excitement level is already low today. haha).

1) I succeeded in cooking one of my favorite dishes, unaided!! (i purposely kicked my housemates out of the kitchen). but i wont tell u what the dish was (it was so easy its embarassing I took pride in it). for those who still dont know, I am practically domestically disabled. But that is to improve this year. haha. I'll be cooking like a pro in no time, InsyaAllah (hoho sungguh yakin diri disitu), thanks to the unwritten rule by my housemates, that we take turns to cook every other day. Before this, all I did was helping with small things, like cooking the vegetables, chopping the onions, etc but I realized that I wont be making any big progress in cooking serious dishes if I continue just doing that. Although it was quite nerve-wrecking at first (and the kitchen I am working in closely resembles a ship wreck), I found satisfaction every time I succeeded (although the dishes I cooked so far were soooo easy most of you can cook with both eyes close), and more confident too. But im really hoping I'll be gaining more courage to cook the more complicated stuffs that can make my mama proud=))


2) I happened to sign up for a 3 months gym membership yesterday! Which means no more slacking around and telling myself  "tomorrow.. tomorrow I'll start jogging" until the end of time. Haha. Da byr mahal kut. kalau malas jugak tak taula.. Resolution for this year: to go back to Malaysia less heavy than the previous years. Saya boleh! Saye mampu mengubahnye!! (hoho..we'll see.. if somehow it doesnt work out, please, please, please forget I've posted this. hahaha)


you know what, it is so great to have great friends that are so supportive no matter how sucks you are. heheh. say what? Alhamdulillah~

=))

annoyed

sometimes it is really really annoying when u cant tell someone how annoyed you are with him/her because u have to consider his/her feeling.

sometimes i wish i can just stop being soo rational and proper and corteous, and tell people what i really want to say, straight out, nil hypocrisy



sometimes i wish i can figure out why the heck am i getting angry over nothing

musthavelostmymind

my life so far..

 

crazy. but i love it. i love my new house. i love my housemates. i love having things to do. i love having things to look forward to. i love assignment . i love wellington. i love the weather. i love the view. i love love love. life is good. 

thank you Allah !

p/s- mood baik sbb tak start kelas lagi. heheh

angkat anak gajah

memandang penimbang dgn hati berdebar debar. dengan senget senget aku angkat beg yang rase mcm angkat anak gajah, letak atas penimbang. mengintai jarum penimbang dgn perasaan takut dan segan silu (aik?).

15 kg.

yeay yeay yeay. hati gembira. tambah lagi tambah lagi. tiada beg dan kasut yang bakal terkorban. semua pun boleh melancong ke new zealand hey!

Alhamdulillah.


(janganla penimbang tu sbenarnye rosak. huhu. kalau tak selame ni aku sbenarnye lagi gemuk la?? hoho)

escapism lagii

the right side of the bed, founded:

two half-closed luggage destined to fly to new zealand this sunday, (which funnily and uncannily resemble a batu belah batu bertangkup with the victims struggling to escape from the doomed rocks)  begging the owner with all their heart to start packing right away

the owner:

pura pura tak nampak. tido tido

 Ni bkn aku jadi kucing. Bye bye mus. akak nak balik nz daa

in front of the bed, on the table, discovered:

an organizer, in it the hastily written 'what to do/buy' list which practically screaming to the owner that she hasnt buy the most important things yet: belated birthday presents for her mum and sister

happy bday dear sis(atie) and mama. i love u with all my heart

the owner: 

checking her 2 years old roxy purse where its skin is peeling here and there (this is a HINT my dear friendss!! my bday is only 3 months away!! heheh). counting the money: rm 55.15 cents left. another important thing yet to buy: contact lenses stock for 16 months. cost: rm 20 x 16. you do the math. pejam mata. wondering where have all the money go. garu kepala yang tidak gatal. bermonolog pada diri sendiri "perlu lebih bijak mengurus wang bulan depan". ye. bulan dpn kita start ye.               
                                                                                                              



ahhh. baik turun makan.





the begs and the organizer and the purse:

Oh God, please make this girl change. Or, please find us a new owner!!

 Peace no war

i worry about the silliest things

which proves how silly i can be at times (yes, at times, not ALL the times. i sincerely hope)

my mum called just now, "Da telefon Dell ke blom?"
"Blom" I answered nervously.
"ha call skarang" she pushed me

i cant believe she called me just to check whether I've called the support centre. and I do not know why I've been postponing/dreading calling them. its been 4 days since my mum gave me the number but I pretended that I can solve my laptop problems on my own. but still, i kept complaining to her. which was the reason she was pretty mad at me last night and thus causing her to nag (as a rule, my mum rarely nags, yes, she is a supercool mum. but no, not after last night)

i think one of the reasons i didnt call them yet is that I worry that they would actually have some mat saleh with american/british/new zealand accent as the technical people. yeah, stupid really when i actually can speak english (im going to be an english teacher for god sake!) but im just nervous that they would not understand what i am saying or I would be failing to describe my laptop problems correctly (im no techno freak, tq very much),etc2 (ye, saye nerves tak tentu pasal)

and my fear was totally unfounded as I discovered that the one who answered my call was actually computer-generated operator (yep, like the one you get when booking a cinema ticket). haha, so much for practising
but no, the problem is not yet solved. sebabnya, my warranty has expired and therefore if wanting to have any further service, I need to renew the warranty. After furious investigation on the net on how much it would cost me, utk one year phone support je die charge RM 176! blom kne repair apape. haishhh. nak ke taknak? tapi naknye kalau balik nz computer jadi lebih kronik camne? huhuuu

well, still talking about worrying over the silliest things, i have one more fear:

I desperately think that I need a pair of sneaker (preferably a converse). the thing is I have this worry that if I happen to go to one of the converse stores, the sales boy/girl would give me funny look thinking:

"hish akak ni, da tua2 besar2 pun nak bli kasut sneakers lagi. perasan budak2 la tu"

and i have even prepared my answer:

"saye nak bli utk adik saye la! haishh"

i dono. kalau kat overseas, it is normal to see grown ups (da beruban pun. tapi bdn fit la. pakcik2 kat malaysia muncit2. haha) wears sneakers casually. and i like dat. tapi kat malaysia susah kut nak jumpa camtu.

ntahla. maybe i am overthinking it. maybe i am rite-i AM silly. hoho.

hows that for an entry?