i worry about the silliest things

which proves how silly i can be at times (yes, at times, not ALL the times. i sincerely hope)

my mum called just now, "Da telefon Dell ke blom?"
"Blom" I answered nervously.
"ha call skarang" she pushed me

i cant believe she called me just to check whether I've called the support centre. and I do not know why I've been postponing/dreading calling them. its been 4 days since my mum gave me the number but I pretended that I can solve my laptop problems on my own. but still, i kept complaining to her. which was the reason she was pretty mad at me last night and thus causing her to nag (as a rule, my mum rarely nags, yes, she is a supercool mum. but no, not after last night)

i think one of the reasons i didnt call them yet is that I worry that they would actually have some mat saleh with american/british/new zealand accent as the technical people. yeah, stupid really when i actually can speak english (im going to be an english teacher for god sake!) but im just nervous that they would not understand what i am saying or I would be failing to describe my laptop problems correctly (im no techno freak, tq very much),etc2 (ye, saye nerves tak tentu pasal)

and my fear was totally unfounded as I discovered that the one who answered my call was actually computer-generated operator (yep, like the one you get when booking a cinema ticket). haha, so much for practising
but no, the problem is not yet solved. sebabnya, my warranty has expired and therefore if wanting to have any further service, I need to renew the warranty. After furious investigation on the net on how much it would cost me, utk one year phone support je die charge RM 176! blom kne repair apape. haishhh. nak ke taknak? tapi naknye kalau balik nz computer jadi lebih kronik camne? huhuuu

well, still talking about worrying over the silliest things, i have one more fear:

I desperately think that I need a pair of sneaker (preferably a converse). the thing is I have this worry that if I happen to go to one of the converse stores, the sales boy/girl would give me funny look thinking:

"hish akak ni, da tua2 besar2 pun nak bli kasut sneakers lagi. perasan budak2 la tu"

and i have even prepared my answer:

"saye nak bli utk adik saye la! haishh"

i dono. kalau kat overseas, it is normal to see grown ups (da beruban pun. tapi bdn fit la. pakcik2 kat malaysia muncit2. haha) wears sneakers casually. and i like dat. tapi kat malaysia susah kut nak jumpa camtu.

ntahla. maybe i am overthinking it. maybe i am rite-i AM silly. hoho.

hows that for an entry?