saye kne tag

saye kne tag dek choji.and oleh kerana saye sangat sangap malam ni, so here goes:

Sometimes I just need:
-people to have faith in me more than I have faith in myself. someone who believe i can do it even when im not feeling so sure.

Sometimes I want:
-my life to be as sweet as fairy tales. which is impossible. because life is not as predictable but that wat makes life more interesting.

Sometimes I like to:
-stay at my home sweet home doing nothing and savour the time with my loved ones

Sometimes all it takes:
- is for people to take the times to say 'are u ok?' to mend my heart's pain

Sometimes I picture:
- wat my life would be like if i am richer. wud i be the same sarah? wud i be better? wud i be someone that i would hate?

Sometimes I wish:
-everyone, everyone, gets their happy ending. myself included

Sometimes I find:
-the world nowadays is a terrible terrible place to live in. and i feel so helpless to change a thing

Sometimes I take:
-time to heal the pain someone i love a lot has inflicted on me

Sometimes I look:
-up to someone but they end up hurting me

Sometimes I hate:
-how people choose to hurt others at the expend of their own happiness.why oh why??

Sometimes it’s nice:
- if someone do something sweet for you

Sometimes it hurts:
- when people fails to appreciate what u have done for them

Sometimes it makes me happy:
- to know that somewhere in some part of the world, there are people who are doing good for other people

Sometimes it’s sad:
-to realize how us muslim have gone too far astrayed from the one true perfect straight path that Allah has laid for us

Sometimes I listen:
- to other people's problem but i wonder if they ever think of me as a good listener

Sometimes I sleep:
- to pretend that everything would be alright when I wake up again

Sometimes I like to watch:
- beautiful people.haha

Sometimes I feel:
- that people dont understand me enough. i am truly more that meets the eye

tag ni sbenarnye panjang lagi. tapi sudah tak larat.
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selamat malam duniaa
saye

hari yang tidak berapa nak best

hari ni tetibe dpt email pasal placement utk teaching experience. ok. sgt jauh tempat yang aku kne mengajar. da la sengsorang. huu. sbenarnye ble tgk alamat skolah tu di lower hutt, aku x berperasaan pun sbb aku tak bleh byg pun kat mane sbenarnye lower hutt itu (ye, my sense of direction is terrible. kalau ade award kpd org yang paling blur pasal jalan ni aku mmg boleh menang).

'jauh tu', kata eny. slps merisik kawan2 lain punye teaching placement jugak, jelaslah bahawa aku dpt skola yang paling jauh. dan googling tempat tu di internet tidak membantu meredhakan keresahan dan susah hatiku. sbb tak phm. dan complicated. dan sgt sgt jauh dari bandar wellington. buat aku lg sgt cemas. pukul brape nak bangun. kne naik kereta api ke ape. kalau sesat sorg2 mcm mane. kalau kne buli dgn students camne. nak solat kat mane. ni pergi bulan puase, sempat ke tak nak berbuka kat umah. dan mcm2 lagi soalan yang menyesakkan otak aku yang tak berapa nak berfungsi di pagi hari (hah, pagi ke??mcm da tgh hari je kau bgn sarah).

air mata pun bergenang. dpt pule msg dari sha yang tersalah antar tapi berckp pasal aku (haha, sha, slalu sgt tersilap antar kan). tak tau la patutnye antar kat sape. msg simpati tapi buat aku rase bengang. emo sorg2 rase bengang sbb rase org mcm pandang rendah kebolehan aku utk survive sorg2. reply balik dgn emonye. dan hampir mencetuskan pergaduhan antara kitorg. sorry sha, kite kebudak budakan tadi. terima kasih sbb tak balas api dgn api. kite yang emo hari ni. mungkin sbb gelabah dpt skola yang jauh dan tak tau camne nak pergi. mungkin juge sbb Allah mentakdirkan hari ni utk kite berasa tidak sihat. serabut. ble dgr ade sahabat yang da terkena swine flue, kite pun mule risau yang bukan2 (harapnye bukan2 lah)

tapi ble bace balik email yang dpt lepas tu aku lega sket lah, sbb insyaAllah akan diberi briefing camne nak ke skola2 itu. and ble da petang tu aku da boleh berfikir dgn rational and positive sket. chill la sarah, ni la masenye nak berdikari and tunjukkan kat kwn2 kau kau boleh survive sendiri.

hari ni blog aku bernada lain sket kan. mungkin sbb baru lepas tgk cerita Kami the movie. haha. senangnye aku terpengaruh. haip2.

oh, and pasal cerita Kami ni. agak menarik sbb die sempoi je, pelakon die tak nmpk cam blakon, tak macam cerita2 yang trying-too-hard spt cerita2 melayu kebanyakannya. mmg menarik kalau kite tgk from the surface level. yang kurangnya ialah cerita ni cam takde msg yg baik. ok, maybe die nak paparkan kisah persahabatan, and then wat else? die portray cara hidup remaja zmn skang yang sneek out malam2 sbb nak gi tgk gig, yang amik dadah ble tension, yang sanggup jual dadah sbb nk duit (does it make it better if u just sell tapi tak mkn dadah tu? NO). takde langsung scene yang tunjuk budak2 ni solat. nape ye? adekah nmpk kurang moden ble bersolat? citer ni cam nak suggest cam cool la budak2 yg gi gig ni. pompuan islam pakai baju seksi sket tu biasela. ala, remaja kann. so much for 'negara islam'. we must watch out wat we are allowing our media to portray and promote. melayu skarang ni cam da makin hilang identity. and they are proud of it. i guess its up to us yang phm pasal issue agama dan identity melayu to make a change. it might be a slow process, but its not impossible, insyaAllah.

oh. daku da melalut lalut
sakit, cptla sembuh ye, aku nak tgk transformer (terima kasih sang kwn yang baik hati kasi tiket free, hehe). Ya Allah, tabahkanlah aku menempuh ujian Mu ini tanpa byk merengus.

xoxo
sayelah