what are u calling my sister again?

telling a 9 years old girl that she has mental problem is NOT OK
calling her a name that she doesn't like is NOT OK

dont mess with my sister please. you mess with her you mess with me

stay strong sofea. I got your back girl

DEADline ke DATEline ek

zalim:  tidak meletakkan sesuatu pada tempatnya, not placing something where it belongs


that is what I have been doing all this time along. I realized this as I was climbing the killer hill, on the way to the university. As I walk as fast I could at and make it a ritual to glance at my watch every seconds or so to make sure I can get on time to hand in the assignment (deadline: 4 p.m. finish time: 3.20p.m. went out from house: 3.30 p.m), I cant help but hate myself for once again putting me in this situation- knowing that I did not really do well in the assignment. .And like every single time, I wonder what went wrong. Why was I so slow in finishing up the assignment. Its not like I just started the night before. Others has started later than me but still manage to finish the assignment earlier. Why sarah, why?

Its because I have been zalim to myself and to the time that I had.

You know, the things about knowing your deadline means you can actually plan when you can start the assignment, or if you think like me (which I really regret by the way), it allows you to know how much time you have to procrastinate before you really have to start concentrate doing it. And you know what happened when you are only able to concentrate when you really have no extra time left? You'll end up still typing furiously whatever that you hope make sense to the marker, 30 minutes before the due time.

Well, at least I did manage to hand it in before 4 but I guess Im leaving it to chance whether Chris Bowden would like it or not. Uggh, how I wrote the conclusion still haunts me! Huhu

But you know what, there are actually bigger and more important deadline than assignments that all us human have. The thing about this deadline is you dont really know when. But its certain for everyone.

Yep. It's death

We dont really know when our time will be up, when will our breath stop, when we will be passed on to the next world, but we always have the tendency to think "well, insyaAllah, lambat lagi kuttt" "nanti tua2 sikit kutt" "takkan la mati kejap lagi aku sihat je lagi ni" that we don't really start preparing for it. We tend to have this idea that we can change to being a better Muslim when we get old, but we forgot that we cant really guarantee we would able to get there, we forgot that we cant even guarantee we would be able to take in the next breath.

And well, even if we do get to a ripe old age, can we guarantee that we would be able to perform satisfactorily, with quality (remember about doing last minute assignment?) and if its enough to guarantee you an A+, a pass to Jannah and an escape from the hell fire? Tepuk dada tanyela selera makan

Maka,marilah sama-sama mengrefleksi diri. Adakah kita sudah cukup bersedia untuk deadline yang pasti itu? Adakah sure akan dapat buku rekod amal yang A+ di akhirat nanti? Tak sure kan sarah? Maka berusaha buat amal banyak-banyak lagi, tinggalkan yang tidak patut. Boleh insyaAllah, berusaha!!

I hope by writing this down and being reflective I would be a better students next time, and a better servant to Allah, insyaAllah. Go Go Sarah!! U can do it!!

dont sleep yet, reminisce and smile

celebrating yuyu's bday. duduk tgh feeling2 mcm diri sendiri punye bday la pulak kan -_-'

rakan camera ku susah dan senang. haha

dely si fashionista, erin si gadis rempit (but the spec really does suit you), sha si gadis senyum selalu;p

with the bday girl yang enggan bergaya walaupun di bday sendiri. dan cik sha's devil choc cupcake yg mantap

gadis gadis sadis bila bershopping

bergaya ala2 bahu terpleot

leme leme ipod application.  im so having fun with other people's ipod. im still wondering if i shud get one. or if i can even afford to have one T_T

Thanks dely for being patient with me. heheh

being sick is no fun, but..

the ever growing bisul and toothache. wat a combination. and wat a way to spend your easter break huh?

but im not trying to moan and complain about that in this entry. (at least I'm trying very hard not to)

you know, although being sick (in anyway) is no fun, Allah has created sickness for a reason (like everything else that He has created in this world of course). Being in this condition right now, I can think of few good things that sickness does bring:

1. It taught you to appreciate things that you always take for granted, especially health. Now that I am unable to shut my mouth properly because the gum in my mouth is swollen which makes chewing impossible, I cant really enjoy the food. (Of course la, bayangkan kene telan semua benda sbb x boleh kunyah, wuwu). Back in the old days when all is fine, teeth is something I hardly think about. Now it is ALL I think about. Amazing huh how something so small and usually deemed insignificant can affect a human's life in a big way? See, sickness makes you think about all this things and made you realize about how blessed we are actually to be able to do things as simple as eating. Because no, it is not that simple, it is actually a very big blessing. (Please trust me. This is from someone who cant eat for two days now T_T)
2. It also made you realize how weak you are actually in comparison to Allah. We are not invincible at all. Even minor injury or sickness can cause us ail, misery,  uncomfortableness, helplessness, let alone bigger ones. How weak, how powerless we humans are, yet we always forget. Berapa banyak orang yang terang-terangan melanggar hukum Allah, berlagak mcm boleh hidup selamanya, yet bila dah sakit, baru nak cari Tuhan (kalau ada yang mau cari. Kalau yang x mau cari sampai mati alangkah tragisnya). So, di dalam kulit kacangnya (in a nutshell), sakit juga buat kita ingat Allah.
3. It also allows you to practice and reflect about "Ingat 5 perkara, sebelum 5 perkara". Haa, ingat tak itu ape dia? kalau x ingat sila nyanyi lagu raihan sekarang

• sihat sebelum sakit
• muda sebelum tua
• kaya sebelum miskin
• lapang sebelum sempit
• hidup sebelum mati

well, at least I could reflect 3 aspects of the things above (sihat sblm sakit, muda sblm tua and lapang sebelum sempit). Now that I am sick, I realize how great it was to be healthy. Now that I cant chew, it made me think about the time when I would really lose all my teeth in the old age (skarang sarah phm perasaan atuk kene kunyah guna gusi. akan berusaha menjadi lebih empathatic selepas ini). Now all that I think is about my painful  bisul and gusi, I missed the time when I dont have to worry about my health, yet I wasted my time on stupid things.

Being sick is no fun, but I appreciate learning something out of it. 

And Allah, if you wont cure my sickness as soon as I would love to, please ya Allah, please grant me the strength to bear it with a strong heart so I would not complain and moan about my pain all the time. Ameen.

"Manusia yang duduk dalam kenikmatan terlalu lama, selalu terlupa dia sememangnya berada dalam kenikmatan" [As-Syahid Syed Qutb]

I miss you

I am so sorry my blog
for I have kinda abandoned you
i dont know what had happened, but even new fancy layout doesnt provide me enough push to write something new

But tonight it so happened I had the chance of digging through my old entries
and I think I kinda miss you
I miss writing, I miss talking to myself and being reflective
So maybe, I'll try harder to start writing again
About anything, nothing and everything
Just so in the future I can look back I can say "Ahh, so that was how I was so that was what happened" and be reminded of the sweet, the bitter and both in between
InsyaAllah, if Allah is willing

And just for kicks I've decided to post this picture

yeah. I purposely put it up-side-down. got problem with that? HEHE

toodles. bonne nuit!

wish list

I wish I can forget. 

Like totally forget the things I want to forget.

Like it never happens. Like I had never encountered such situation. 

Because you wont miss the things that u dont remember can you? 

And wont be sad when you dont remember the things that upset you, can you?

it's a wishful thinking.

because you cant un-know the things that you have known.

Hi hi! I'm still alive

when he hurts you he hurts me too

ignorance is a bliss they say,

and its true, especially if its something you'd rather not know

like the ugly truth about someone that you'd hate to hate.

I know its too late to change things now, but everytime I face this kind of circumstances I cant help but wish you did not make the decisions you have made

Dont you know how many people you have made unhappy and hurt because of that decision, just so that you can be happy?

Dont you know that no matter how years have passed I'd still think you are a selfish monster?

Dont you know that I cant help but wonder after all this years-are you glad you've made that decision after all?

Are you happy? Can you be happy on someone else's sadness?

Please. Belajar lah jadi adil. Kat dunia ni mungkin la boleh lepas, tapi jangan lupa akhirat itu ada,


Allah Itu Ada