Real Vs Appearance

What people show you
Is what they want you to think about them
A happy picture does not equal to a happy life
Likewise
Not posting happy stuff
Does not mean they're not having the time of their life

Facebook, Instagram, Twitter, and any other social networks
Have helped people to create the world of façade
Create the medium to shape of how they want people to think of them

But it is impossible to be happy all the time you know, impossible.
The life you advertise
If it's not really what it is
Sooner or later its going to crumble
People will be able to see behind your mask anyway
Would be able to see that:
"Well, you dont have that perfect life too. You're not untouchable or invincible, just like any other human"

Knowing that,
stop comparing yourself to others who you think "have it all"
who you think "sadness cant touch them"
Cause it's not true
Just because they dont display their pain doesnt mean they dont experience one

Live your own life to the fullest
Take risk and be brave enough to fall, to hurt, to cry
Take risk and to try
Take risk and to fly

As long as you have God as your wings,
You wont die in futile

(a poem, [poem ke nihh?] inspired by my stalking on instagram) hehe

sarah_mukahland

our life has changed

And I think i finally have to accept that i've lost you
What used to bind us together: our dreams, our fears, has disappeared
u've achieved ur dreams
u no longer have things to fear
and im still here, still here

Sorry if i stay away
I need time to be okay
to finally digest the fact that we're worlds apart now,
No matter what you say

Truly, Im not sad u're happy
im just sad for me
but this test, it is fated to be
If it is custom made for me
There's high chance i, too will get my victory


S.s

letter to future self

yes. I still make grammar mistakes sometimes. But i can self-correct

I will be fine
give me time

semoga

Apapun yang terjadi
Berjalanlah tanpa henti
Air mata tertahan
Waktu untuk dijatuhkan

Nanti kita kan tahu
Betapa bijaknya hidup
Sepahit apapun ini
Pelajaran yang berarti

Semoga
Pemergianmu
tak akan mengubah apa pun

Semoga
Mampu ku lawan
Kesepianku

Tetiba out of nowhere this song came into my mind today. Siti Nurhaliza-Melawan kesepian

a letter to You

This feeling im feeling right now
Nobody knows it or understands it as much as You do
Talking about it to others will not help because they dont have the solution like You do
I am so not worthy of Your love and Your aid, so far from it
this sinful slave that I am,
I am truly nothing to You
I dont even feel I have the right to ask anything from You
after all that I have done

but still, still I hope
as You are the Most forgiving and the Most Merciful ones
and Your love is the kind where it covers everyone, regardless the saint or the sinner
help me face this trial
show me the way
as You hold the answer to everything
and You own the ultimate strength
help me, guide me, assure me
I am not in the position to ask anything
but please Ya Rabb, Ya Rahman, Ya Rahim
Despite of my sins and mistakes,
Can you overlook that and aid me?

crashed down

Everytime when I got overexcited over something
I ended up came crashing down

but being myself
I cant help it, it's my nature
i am easily hyped
when i am excited, happy, jubilant,  i cant help but express it
But often it resulted to sadness and disappointment

need a better restrain over yourself, sarah

Dreaming

Some people said, if you're having a good dream, dont share it to others because it wont be a reality.. do you think that's true?

Ive been the having the same dream two days in a row now. Have i been wanting it that much? I mean its not like i have been really thinking about it.

And at some point of the dream i will realise that i am actually dreaming so i force myself to wake up. Realising its just a dream makes me feel pathetic. I dont know if anyone could relate, but i kind of hate myself from having to dream about it.

On a different note,  maybe tu gangguan syaitan. Sapa suruh tidur lepas subuh kan. Haha