call, and He will answer

after i wrote the previous entry,
I went to perform solah, and after solah I prayed
and among the prayers I included this doa:

"Ya Allah, Kau berikanlah aku berita gembira yang boleh menenangkan hatiku"

and after that I continued reciting the quran
and I decided to read the translation as well
guess what I found in the page I happened to read:

"(Mereka) menjawab, "Kami menyampaikan kabar gembira kepadamu dengan benar, maka janganlah engkau termasuk orang yang berputus asa"

"Dia Ibrahim berkata, "Tidak ada yang berputus asa dari rahmat Tuhannya kecuali orang yang sesat" (Ibrahim:55-56)

There is no coincidence in Islam, everything is already planned by Allah. I called for Him, and He answered, urging me to not give up and believe in Him, subhanallah! It gave me goosebumps and I just had to share it.

He is indeed always near, and ready to answer our calls.
All we need to do is have faith, and believe:')

Allah adalah seperti sangkaan hamba-hambaNya.

comparing.
i know i shouldn't do it, but I still do.
and sadistically doing it again and again.
which is bad, really bad, because when you keep comparing, it means you are not being happy, not being grateful for what you have.
therefore,
my aim for 2014- to be better than that and learn to be more thankful (easier written than done, that I know)
everything is in its own due time
I believe in Allah's planning, He is indeed the best of planners.
He knows what is the best for me, if I tell myself that often enough I know I will stop comparing and be happy with what I have, insyaAllah.

Allah tidak akan sesekali menganiaya hamba-hambaNya, kan? ;)
Maka mari bersangka baik



Mohon doanya=)

this is wrong

Hey old friend

These few days I kept thinking of you
About how nobody can replace the kind of special friend you are to me

The fact that we can straight away pick up a conversation where we left off no matter how big the time gap was, no matter how different our lives are from each other

The fact how you know what I am really like but can still accept me

The fact how you never gave up on me no matter how mean I was to u. "Never Gave up". Yes. It is in the past tense because finally u did. N I dont blame you.

U know,  im just not the kind of person who regret over things. Things happen because they are destined to happen that way, I truly believed that. N its always for the better insyaAllah.

I dont regret but that doesnt stop me from wondering about the what ifs, or what it could have been. Which is useless, I know. I am struggling to stop thinking this way. struggling to stop wishing I could have one more conversation with you.

I hope you won't read this. Maybe u wont. Afterall why would you be here when you are happy there?

Thank you for the memories.  At least I would always have them.


Or is it actually better if we had never known each other?

why do I have to keep writing about u

I hate this feeling of uneasiness
I feel as if im living on the edge, if I even only make one small move, I might come tumbling down
I feel as if im trying to walk on a road full with broken glasses, shoeless, I might accidentally step on the glass any moment now
What I am saying is, no matter how calm the current situation is,I cant seem to be convince that I have received my happy ending
Not when u are acting especially weird

That is the case of an offender u know
People find it hard to trust you
Especially when you dont seem to work hard to vanquish people's suspicion that you have stopped commiting the offense
I hate you doing this to her
I hate you cant seem to stop hurting her
When she deserves so so so much better
Thanks to u I cant even look at ild photo albums n be happy for the memories
No. I am hurt for the "have been"s.

Still, I am assured. No matter how much u might get away with this now, you wont get away with this hereafter. Allah is seeing this, nothing would be amiss.

You might be able to get away now, but remember, Allah is the best Judge, where no one who have ever experienced injustice would be left unhappy

an ode to you, A.R.Y

Sebenarnya, kita hidup untuk apa? Apa lagi yang kita kejar? Sampai bila? Ketahuilah, kalau betul agama kita pegang, kita akan jelas yang kita hidup ini bukan utk selamanya, tp utk akhirat di sana. Kalau kita jelas itu, nescaya kita tidak akan terhegeh hegeh mengejar nikmat dunia yang belum tentu menjamin kebahagiaan utk disana

Umur kita semakin hari semakin pendek, masa kita semakin suntuk. Sudah cukup kah amal kita utk dibawa ke dunia yg selamanya utk kita bersenang lenang, lalai mengejar nikmat dunia.

Sudah cukupkah amal kita utk menjanjikan mendapat kebahagiaan di sana untuk kita tidak kisah berbuat dosa kiri dan kanan?

Kita bukan hidup utk selamanya
Apa apa pilihan yang kita buat kini, fikir dalam dalam, adakah akan membawa keuntungan disana

Jgn ikut nafsu.  Ingat, masa kita semakin pendek, kita bkn hidup selamanya


-nukilan from someonewhodoesntmeananythingtoyou

I want to live in oblivion

One of these days, I might just die out of a heartbreak

Even if I cry until blood comes out instead of tears
You still wont care would you?

Even if I kneel to beg until my knees make a hole in the ground
It still wont mean anything to you, right?

Even if I call you all kind of names
It still wont budge you from stop hurting us will you?

What have I done so bad to deserve this
What have you done so right to get away with this again?

You're too old to be selfish
If only u realise that
I H U

being mature does not equal to being an adult

Truth to be told, I have always wanted my life to be like in a movie

And I kind of got what I wish for
But its not the kind of genre that I would have preferred- romantic, comedy, adventure
No. Far from that- it is sad, melancholic and tragic all the way
Every possible scene u have watched in a sad movie, some of it might resemble my life
Sometimes it's up to the point of absurdity, even I cannot believe I am really living this kind of life. Sometimes I kind of feel acting in a cerekarama waiting for the director to yell "cut!". If only it is that easy. But no, this is not some kind of movie,  this is my life we are talking about.

I have always hate sad movie, even more so if its a sad ending. But I read someone's status today quoting John Lennon - " Everything will be ok in the end. If it's not okay, then it's not the end"

I so want to believe this. Can I believe this? Cuz at the rate I am going right now, i am really hating this part of my life right now. I cant totally wait for the sad part to finally ends and for the happy part to finally starts.

Can I? Do I deserve a happy ending after all?